Yup. It's not temporary, either. It's a bittersweet feeling. I want to go home, then again, I don't want to leave LA. As much as I love it, I just simply can't stay here. It's too expensive, for one, and it's not a really safe environment for me. There are creepy people all over the place. And it's not just that... I'm seriously afraid to live in this city. There are gang wars everyday on the highway right behind the apartment. People are shooting each other from cars and people are getting inbetween to pass and then THEY get shot. There are so many murders and all of that. Ugh. I don't want to be caught up or involved.

Gang members creep me out. I really don't like gangs -- at all. :( It's not that I hate the people in them, I just don't like what most of them do. There are so many murders everyday and I live right outside of Inglewood. When I go grocery shopping, I always get strange looks from people on the street. I've had a few strangers approach me one. This one guy looked me up and down and said "Hey sexy". I just gave me a look and walked on. The area that I go grocery shopping is considered Inglewood. Dude. It's like, right up the street. It scares me.

People in LA are friendly. If I had to compare LA to NY, lmao. They are. They wave to you, they smile at you. It could be considered creepy especially if it's a guy, an older guy or something. That's just the way I as raised. I was raised to be cautious of everyone and anyone. I don't trust people, either.

Also... I like the diversity that's out here. No offense, but I was getting sick of seeing white people, lol. I liked the fact that I was making friends with all sorts of people. I've made many friends who were Black, Mexican, Hispanic, Hawaiian, Japanese, Asian, etc. and they're actually really friendly. I got to learn about their culture and the way they live their lifestyle. Not only that, but I was able to be exposed to new things, such as other peoples' cultures, foods and their styles.

Being out here also taught me how to take care of myself. I was pretty irresponsible at home. I'm a lot less irresponsible now because I had to teach myself how to get along with and live with strangers. I also had to apply myself here and there, which is difficult for me, but I'm working on it. And it's not only that... There's so much more... But I don't think you want to be bored, lol.

So I'm coming home for good in June. Don't worry, though, I *AM* going to another art school close by! :)

Wanted to get rid of that emo-tastic journal, lol.

Not much is going on, really. I still need to register for classes because I'm WEEKS late and uhhh... I really need to fill out my FAFSA forms too. dasjkfdssfdsfdj it's a lot of crazy stuff, hehe.

I'm loving my animation class, though. That's going quite smoothly for me.

For you Smallville fans who added me, I keep having Smallville dreams! UGH! Not that it's a bad thing, it's just that I need to remember those darned dreams, lol.

... And I need to get a job so that I can buy myself food. I'm in serious need of food, haha.

That's all.

So, what's new with you?

http://snowballsweets.deviantart.com/

Go there if you want to read more. It's in my journal. Not too hard to miss. I don't feel like talking about it...

I've got a VERY busy schedule ahead of me. I just had math today, that was fun, lol. No sarcasm, honest! The teacher is awesome, he seems nice.

My schedule:

Monday - Transitional Math
Tuesday - Image Manipulation (YAY MORE LEX AND LANA ART AND MANIPS FROM ME)

Drawing and Anatomy (Uh oh!)

Wednesday - Color Theory

Thursday - Drawing, proportion and perspective

Otherwise, nothing much. I came back from San Diego with my cousins.

I had a terrific time in San Diego. I did things that wouldn't imagine! And no, NOT THAT, lmao. I hopped on two buses (no wait, 3) to get to San Diego. And these buses took me to Downtown Los Angeles! This isn't your ordinary downtown, aww hell no. xD

It's scary down there! Lots of bums and creeps! A few guys asked me if I wanted a ride! I was like... No thanks...

Anyway, my cousin and I had dinner with my other relatives and my other cousin. It was so much fun! I learned some things I didn't want to learn about some of my other relatives.

I also visited my 2nd cousins. The "wealthy" ones. For some strange, I got a strange feeling when I was over there... I didn't know why. I think it was my second cousin's husband, Hal who gives me "once-overs" if you know what I mean.
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Overall, I had a great time, went out to dinner and such! Just vegged. I have some pictures that I'll upload hopefully tomorrow. My cousin's backyard has a BREATHTAKING view of San Diego.

Yupyup. That is it. K bye.

So my roommates have finally decided to move out. The two of them. I guess I really bother them, huh? Nah, just kidding, lol! They are moving out because they cannot STAND school-sponsored housing. They want to drink, blast their music, etc. Hey, they're both 28, so why the heck not? XD They're going to be in the same area as I, just a different apartment building.

Now for my other roommate, I don't know about her. I NEVER see her, really. She must have a boyfriend or something. Hmm.

Oh! Did I mention the horrible ant problem that our apartment complex has? Oh, I didn't? Well, you're in for a long paragraph or two...

About 2 months after I started living at the Villa Azure, I ate in my room and left crumbs around. Didn't think much about it. Until they came. >.<;; The line of ants, it must've been about 400 of them, invading our room AND the tiny dining room AND the bathroom! First they invaded my room, because that's where the food was. I vacuumed the crumbs AND the ants, I had no tolerance for it. Then they invaded the top of our dresser. I just sprinkled cinnamon on it and they went away (ants hate cinnamon). Then they invaded the BATHROOM, God knows WHY! There isn't any food in there!

And get this... They didn't even embark on the kitchen or the garbage bag YET. Key word, yet. *sighs* It's so frustrating and annoying. I had to kill like, hundreds of ants and they keep coming back! Now they're on hiatus because I killed about 50 of them a few days ago with my bare hands (and a tissue of course). I sprinkled cinnamon around my bed. Dude, I do NOT want ants in my bed!

Now I'm in the computer lab at the Villa and I see a couple more ants! It's like... "Jesus! Will these freaking ants EVER go away?!" Maybe. My roommate told me that this was the time where they invade because they're getting ready to hibernate.

Other than that, everything is peachy keen! XDDD;

Though I do starve every so often, only eating 200 calories a day. That's college life for ya! Man, do I need a job!

Also, I'm drowning in work. So much stuff to do! I think an ART college student's life is probably the most demanding thing ever. Especially if you're in animation or video production. More than half the school smokes cigarettes. I'm not kidding. It's disgusting and no matter how stressful it is (it's the 4th stressful school in the country) I won't submit to that. NASTYYYYY! Hell no.

Out of High School Life

Let's just say that when you go to a college that's SO far away from home, your perspective on everything changes. You are in a new environment and all. Places are different, people are different and you have added about 300 of peoples' faces and names into your mind. You make new friends, and everything seems to be a blur. You barely remember anything about home or your friends back home for that matter. They pop into your head every once in a while. Once you go off on your own, you are practically completely on your own. Sure, my parents send me things like money, home supplies and some food, but still, I am completely on my own. I do my own laundry, wake myself up in the morning, do my work without my parents at my back telling me to do it, clean the house, make new friends, be responsible for your actions.

It's not exactly a dream come true being an adult. It just means more responsibilities and more stress. Sure, you get a break from your parents and home life, but it really isn't enough. To tell you the truth, I'd like to go back to being 14 again when I started out as a freshman in high school. I had no troubles, except for that girl in high school (yes, I still know her name). There wasn't as much work as there is now and I wasn't so far from family and friends.

I suppose I can't complain, though. I've made so many new friends out here already, it's amazing. There's only 200 people at our school now, I've talked to at least half of them already! :) My career is totally going to take off my third quarter of being here! There's two months to every quarter and there are twelve quarters. I'm in my first going into my second very soon! So happy!
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Oh, btw: California isn't as cracked up as everyone says it is. Especially when you don't have a car, money or knowledge to get anywhere!

More to come, people are waiting for the computer here, lol. xD

Buh bye!

Finally, whoo hoo! I'm back. I haven't been here in a while, really no reason to. If you want to find me, I'm always on my art site. I'm like, addicted to that thing.

http://snowballsweets.deviantart.com/

Yup. That's meh.

Anyway, I moved 3,000 miles away to go to college in Los Angeles, California. That's probably the biggest thing that's happened to me since I last updated. XD

Well, another big thing, too. My Grandmother passed away on June 18th of this year. It was sad, but she was suffering so much. In a way, I'm glad that she's in peace. Much love to you, Grandma.
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Oh and I graduated high school. 'Nuff said. XD

Hehe, yeah, sorry. Haven't been on in a while. So I finally got my SAT scores back! I got an 1120 out of 1400. LAWL, I'm dumb. :)

It's good enough for the colleges that I applied to, so whatever. My birthday is coming up, whoo hoo! I'll finally be an adult. Scary. Hope my younger friends don't ask me to buy lotto tickets or cigarettes, or better yet, ask me to sneak them into clubs, rofl.

So yeah, lots of band stuff going on. We just had the little "exchange" concert at our school. A band from Wisconsin came. They were REALLLY good for their size. But when I listen to middle school and high school recordings, they sound like a college band. Haha. Oh well. That's just us. I suck at the Flute, too. DUN ASK ME TO PLAY YOU ANYTHING.
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My SAT scores were supposed to come today... But they haven't arrived yet. ARGH.

Well, that's it. Just wanted you to know that I was still alive. Toodles!

...Yes, they are. I mean, WERE.
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Anywaysssss... Yes. I took my SAT for the first time today. It was surprisingly easy, however, the math part was pretty challenging me. I almost blanked out, my eyes were going blurry, heh. It was a good experience, because I think that this will teach me to write a whole lot better. I can't wait for my scores, they'll post them on collegeboard.com. God, I hope I did well.
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So yeah, that's all the news I have...

I kinda changed my account because I had a stalker, or maybe a lurker that had been reading my entries for quite a long time. So I decided to start fresh.
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If she's reading this, then good. Let her read. I want her to read, actually. She knows who she is. She's all talk, like my friend says, and I believe her. I'm glad she graduated. The class of 2005 is a lowlife class anyway (well, where I'm from it is).

She seriously needs to grow up. And not search for other peoples' livejournals to see if people are talking jack about her. Then again, I'm not surprised if people talk jack about her, the people in my band class still do. She didn't be-friend me because I was weird. So what? Everybody is weird. She's weird for even SAYING that. Why must you be mean to someone who's weird? That's really immature. Of course, SOME 16 year olds were/are immature back then, and most of them still are. But to be attacking a high school student AFTER SHE graduated high school AND to be on an online journal is totally strange. Makes you think the person has psychological issues, tee hee.
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And how she found my journal is BEYOND me. Tch, oh well. Hopefully she finds it again, it would be interesting to hear what she has to say. That is, if it REALLY was her. Could've been fake, but by the way she was throwing things back at me, well, I can totally tell that it was her sticking her "old" routine.
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I'm glad she's not my friend. Why would I want someone as controlling and b*tchy as her? I'm guessing she doesn't have too many friends I would imagine because of her attitude and her desire for wanting to control people and shove them around. You may have controlled people in the past (and you probably still do, sadly), but you're not going to be throwing that back at me, kay?

I mean, seriously, all you can do is throw back a few insults and insult me on my journal? How pathetic is that? If you really want to make yourself intimidating, then show up at Foran High School. I dare ya. Hmm, that WOULD be weird and stalkerish. You would've contradicted yourself right there in your LAST post to me if you DID visit.
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Enough of my rant.
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I had to delete my journal, though, sadly. There was some stuff I really didn't like in there.
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I was known as snowballsweets. If you knew me, please add me, flame me, whatever.
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Now, for some more news.... My 84(?)-year old uncle fell and broke his hip.
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He broke it in October. I hope he's alright.
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I've got midterms tomorrow. Well, actually a final. My Environmental Science. I know I'll do well. As for math, I'm not so sure. My math teacher is being awfully nice, giving me B's when I SHOULD be getting a D or an F.

Oh well. *shrugs*